realised tat i've not been bloggin for ages. however, the past weeks had been good. doin some PT retail jobs. n i realised tat most of the customers i had been interacting were 95% ang-mohs! good experience and i feel tat im gettin bolder each dae. :) tdy's pg svc was good. except for a kid tat reali made my hair stand. LITERALLY! i gotto sae tat there haf been no kids so far tat reali made me lose my cool. EXCEPT for him. i wont name names, cos it aint nice. i noe it aint nice to mention but.. mmm.. u guys wont noe whu he is huh. lol. he was normally an alrite kid, except for this 2 weeks. His mum is oso nt sure of the reason. but he wld cry his head off, and wanting to make an exit out frm PG rm. he IS the onli kid tat even my pg teachers haf to tell me to "RELAX"~~ bcos wen i pull him up to stand up, he doesnt wan, wen i wanted him to sit, he doesnt wan. it doesnt make tings easier when he continues to wail out loud.. n parents, aunties r lookin as if i was ill-treatin him. but, we PG teachers r used to tat "look". haaa.. eventually, he stops crying wen a male teacher carries him, but our policy does not allow tat. its a rule as to protect the male teachers. so wen the other female teachers attempt to carry him. HE CONTINUES TO CRY!!! argh~~~ H.E.L.P!!

im so looking fwd to attending 4 weddings in this year alone! woo~~ i jus loved weddings! thou i onli attended 1 wedding dinner and 2 Holy Mat!! haha.. pathetic huh.. remembered the time when i attended vivien, my excgl's holy mat.. and i cried the moment she entered the childn church hall as the song - "From this moment" starts to play. i was thinkin how crazy am i. im not even her mum, sis or whosoever! But.. i knew her when she was in her last year of uni, saw her when she got her 1st job and NOW?? A PROUD MUM OF 2 WONDERFUL BOYS!!

Attending..
1) Suzanna's (our pg worker)
Her BIG BIG dae is on the 13th of Nov..

2) Singapore Cousin's

3) Msia Cousin's

3) Lisa's (our sat pg IC)
in jan 2010..

*gotto save up money lo*

my favs

these are the top 3 chocolates tat i liked. well, so far. mani wld tink its so lame to blog about this. but i do like if someone wld buy a nice bag, place in all my fav choco, sweets, drinks even! whoever is readin this cld help me tell my future one~ *winks* hahah...

No. 1
Kinder Bueno



No. 2
Kit Kat Crunch

(if u notice, this is different frm the aluminium packaging. it reali reali does taste different! this packaging is 10000 times nicer. i promise~)

No. 3
Hello Panda

Bubble Tea~~

Saw stella's post on bubble tea.Thus, i've decided to post my comments on the bubble tea shops that i like. So far, i've 3 bubble tea shops that i reali like. Those who noes me well wld noe that i onli drink HONEY MILK TEA. woo~~~

Those in:

1) SIM canteen (their pearl sux thou)
$1.50/cup

2) Each-A-Cup (the one in suntec & airport is great. not the one in Square2 thou)
$2/cup

3) KOI (oso known as 50岚 in taiwan. recommended by mingyan. nice nice~~)
$2.40 (s), $2.70 (m), $3.50 (L) pretty expensive..

are NICE!

Get to know yourself better..

Omgosh!! This test is 90% "zun"~~

Have some fun! - http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

:)

just finished taking a hot bath. haha.. seems weird huh. but i do not usually allow myself to take a real hot bath.. but it reali do feels great.. listening to the songs in "Writings on the walls".. reading inspiring blog posts.. feels so relax~~~

Happy Happy Things to note:
1) saw caleb chew, one of my fav kids aft a loooong time. realised frm his mum tat she had been working morn shifts for the past mths. Therefore, caleb had to attend the other svc. And he has grown so outspoken! im so proud of him~~~

2) received 4 Teacher's Dae Present. One frm Emberlynn parents, the other frm Charmaine's, Reuben personally and lastly from our IC TEACHER JO-ANN.. reali warms ur heart~~

3) received a surprise belated bdae present frm Edric (a SOT fren).. glad to noe someone is making an effort to make my dae! :)

4) went for sw's party just now. her mum reali is a great cook. enjoyed the bee hoon, chicken wings, curry chicken, sushi and mani mani more~~

5) played the old secondary card games like "HEART ATTACK", "DONKEY".. had a great time laughing..enjoying myself. :)

6) reaching hme and smelled my fav vinegar pig trotters~~hehehe!!

10 things I nv forget in SOT..

It has onli been 3 daes since we officially graduated. But we have been missing one another lots.. send uyi and afeno off yst.. almost cried when we gave each other a hug.. it has been a great 5.5mths tog n im reali superly blessed by them! Yst, its david's turn to leave singapore back to indonesia to continue his father's biz.. and tdy, fandy's going back Indonesia too!! argh!! sad sad sad..:(

1) Fearing for our lives (wendy, ariel, wah ju & me) as Addy SPEED us to skl..

2) Eating our fav CCF (Chee Chong Fun) in the C.C. opp skl.
Our SOT life is nv complete w/o having tat for breakfast almost EVERIDAE!!

3) CCF gang (comprising of sara, ariel, wah ju, felicia, me and other on & off mbrs)

4) the wonderful mbrs we adopted into team 25 after a successful mission trip to Tanjong Balai.. (Cecilia, Fandy, Andre, Drew, Vincent, Merlyn, Judy, Peiling, etc...)

5) the mani events WE attend tog.. (suppers after suppers.. grad dinner.. potluck party..JB Trip.. future oversea trips tog!!)

6) the FIRST time after soooo long we made PST MING so angry tat he "scolded" us in class..

7) the signs & wonders each and every one of us did...

8) the matchmaking sessions we have for one another in class..

9) our mock cg.. (Hexing leading games was realli a CLASSIC! laughed our heads off!!)

10) dozing off during exams as we were too shag after the opm...

another week...

so in the mood of matchmaking pple.. lol.. mayb when the time is riped. mmmm.. haha.. found out so mani secrets this week. and i did not dig them out, its just revealed to me by the person. :)

Stand in for Sun's JW IC tdy for service 4. I luv the kids!! They're so sweet, so opened up to me and they listen to instructions! They're v well-behaved! (So are my S3 kids!!) Brought 3 kids to the toilet after svc.. While the other 2 guys went into the cubicals, i accompanied the onli gal to help her. End up Isaiah locked the door! At first, i tot it was ok, as he's q old, mayb he noes hw to unlock the door. However, i realised tat he's taking a long time but he's stil inside! I calmed myself down immediately, told him to use more force to unlock the door. Heard him trying but he's still stuck! Regina from J7 was dere too n we tried to help but it was useless! Then i went to the next cubical, stood on the toilet bowl and peered next door. Isaiah looked up at me with a smile (he stil cld smile!!) I then told him to use more force to unlock the door! PTL!! He managed to do so and he came out safely! Talked to his dad after tat. Realised he knew how to unlock the door.. guess he was too frightened and was unable to unlock the door.. Still, PTL! Nothing happended.. wheee~~~

when does brothers gets irritating..

When:

1) we snatch over the one and only grape flavoured yakult.

2) we debate on who shld get the only set of MacDonalds supper.. (& its so unfair wen the youngest one always gets it!)

3) ur mum cooks breakfast for HIM ONLY!

4) he doesn't wan to lend his laptop (& the thing is that he's not using too!!)

5) he wants to watch his soccer and me, my fav drama series!

6) This happens on a sat morning:
ME: So do i look good?
HIM: Yea.. (looks at the computer screen)
ME: U're not looking at me.. do i look nice....
HIM: Ya la Ya la.. say nice ma.. (continues to looks straight at the screen)
ME: ARGH!!! *%&%*(&*@^(*()

BUT MY BRO IS STILL THE BEST IN THE WORLD. LUV HIM!!! :)

just "preached" my FAITH sermon to qiu over the fone. haha.. more of like stammering my sermon. im more or less done except that i've to write down word for word of what i will be saying tmr.. not really keen on doing that..lol..im not a "writey" person. My first time doing "ministry" and is freaking me out. well, i dun have the soothing, soft voice.. hopefully i dun sound too manly. hahahahah!!!

Jollie is currently going nuts!!
I've to CONCENTRATE!

events to & not to loof fwd to...

7th July - First Prac Sermon Preaching on FAITH.
dead dead.. i serious tink my point and illustration aint strong enuf. i nid GRACE!!!

8th July - Submission of "How to be a contagious christian" book review
well.. thank God for bro kim hock.. our deadline has been extended for 1 more day! yuppie!

9th July - TESTS TEST TESTS!!!
on Gifts of the Holy Spirit and Homiletics..

10th, 11th & 12th - As usual, visitation, cell grp & svc..
Luv em'!! Thank God for Gabriel, a great man of God (learnt alot frm him)
Loved my cgmbrs! another highlight of my dae. yst's cg mtg was great! n finally got to c Jo aft 1 mth..mizz him..

17th - MISSION TRIP to Tanjong Balai!!
Wooo!!~~~ Healings and miracles shall follow the man and woman of God!!!!

MUMS!!!!!!!!!

J: I'm going out with my frens and her frens. (I reali don like this sort of mtg up.. wen there is 3 gals, 6 guys and u only know 1 gal! what to do, reject my fren and she gets upset..)

M: Got guys anot??

J: Ya..

M: Go make frens la.. And if he's good, brg him home k?

J: HUH!!??!! Siao la.. i dun even noe anibodi.. and when do u ever brg hme a guy so fast back to see ur parents?

M: Ya, if good.. muz faster grab.. then he can brg me for holidays..

J: (OMGosh!!! MY MUM IS GOING NUTS!)

the past weeks...

Watched "Ghosts of girlfriends past" with chen li, rufus, evan and sandra. I reali enjoyed the movie, despite going in w/o a clue what was the movie about. N shockingly, i cried. lol.. this evan kept telling pple about it. i dint expect the movie to touch me but it did. the lines was actually touching (its abit lame at some parts thou) :).. n i teared more than once actually. i nv liked watchin those sad movies.. like "Pearl Harbour", "Armageddon", etc.. cos i reali don like crying! jus makes u feel weak!

"The stronger one in a relationship is whoever that care less". A tag line in the movie that actually made me realise i am like clinging this in a part of my life. Choose to try, believe me, i AM and will continue to try!

Jus realised i had been crying ALOT the past weeks. starting frm the week Mike Connell came school to teach us.. told huili & evan that seriously if i was to cry under the presence one more time, i cld literally feel my heart breaking into pcs..(exaggerating huh..) But its true.. Then last week, quarelled wif my gd fren over sms.. it was heart-breaking.. i felt so upset tat she cldnt feel God IS wif her and how thankful I am that God is always wif me. I jus feel tat i cld lean onto His shoulder everytime, anytime. And He will be dere for me. :)

Then this week, over some stuff. I dint noe it cld affect me so badly but i was. But i know that indeed this is the time i cld jus give up and draw away frm Him, or to choose to stick even closer to Him. I am glad i choose the latter. No matter wad wld happen, I promise to stick by Him! :)

On a good side, wanto officially congratulate my fren (thou im the 3rd to noe!). I know how overjoyed she is, yet at the same time, mixed feelings within her. I did not go tro' it b4, but we discussed it tro. I know how hard it is for her.. But gal, REM! U have to continue to PRAY! If its His ways, i hope tat the desire in your heart will come to pass! hahah. Made a decision myself too. Its bit ironic as most pple who's gg tro my phase in life will be tinking the exact opposite of me.. haha.. im still lost.. but i hope i'll get the courage and make the choice soon!

EVERYBODY! JIA YOU!

PASTOR TAN ROX!

I totally adore Pastor Tan!! Yst's Church-Wide Bible Study (CWBS) on the Songs of Solomon was great. i mean it totally blew me off! So much was revealed to me personally. I learnt so so much yst. Which reminds me of a conversation between my classmates and I during break in school. We were jus discussing who is our fav preacher.. many said Pastor Meng. Indeed! He's so humourous who nv fail to liven our class atmosphere. But i rem saying i like Pastor Tan. It is like in every svc that he preaches (mostly whenever Pst Kong is not ard), he nv nv fails to teach us new things. That's why we always say he is really a TEACHER. AND I don rem dozing off in any sermon that he taught. :p

Just finished editing my FAITH assignment due tmr. As usual, a last min job done. hehehe.. Anw, reali Thank God that I have done finished the past 2 weeks. Just a few phrases to edit. :) Wen for our Team 25 potluck in Edric's hse. It was so so fun! We played "werewolf", a game similar to "mafia", just tat its 10000 times more exciting. Uyi (our nigeria fren) was sitting beside me and was talking to himself non-stop tat made me laugh like crazy tro'out the game. After which we had a KTV cum jokes cum riddles session. Another round of tummy-aches.. Lol..

The day before (Sat) was not a great day. Thou the mother's dae drama was good. I love it wenever our church try new ways to protray a drama for us. It is always refreshing & fantastic! Called up belle to complain (once again) while on the way hme about something. haaa.. glad to haf her as a fren, one i cld just throw my worries and troubles to. Well, after putting down the phone, i just had this sudden feeling of finding a partner. I mean i did not had this feeling for a veryyyyyy longgggg time already. Thou i wld talk bout BGR and so on but the so called "urge" of finding one reali nv occur to me since dono wen. Lol. Pple asked me why.. and seriously i feel im just not ready. But just yesterday, I had this sudden deep feeling of how great it wld be to have someone by my side, one whom i cld share my troubles, burdens, happiness with. However, i always feel its a step of faith to do so. I mean how cld u tell if HE is indeed the one. THE ONE whom u cld depend on, trust in, rely on wenever crisis arise and tat wen he tells u tat all is going to turn out well and indeed it does. I mean jus being able to talk and laugh wif him isnt going to last us tro' life. Is HE man/mature/reliable enuf for u? Is he a do-er or jus a talker? How wld u noe? Seriously, i tink its stil not time for me to find out yet. Perhaps a few years down the road?

Maybe.....

歌曲：遇见
歌手：孙燕姿
专辑：The Moment

歌词：

听见冬天的离开我在某年某月醒过来
我想我等我期待未来却不能因此安排
阴天傍晚车窗外未来有一个人在等待
向左向右向前看爱要拐几个弯才来

我遇见谁会有怎样的对白
我等的人他在多远的未来
我听见风来自地铁和人海
我排著队拿著爱的号码牌

我往前飞飞过一片时间海
我们也曾在爱情里受伤害
我看著路梦的入口有点窄
我遇见你是最美丽的意外
总有一天我的谜底会解开

Ladies Conference..

Today, we had a "ladies cgm" combined with Yu Zhen. It was good, reali reali good. Presence of God was very very strong. When we start with worship, tears jus came flowing down. I was reminded of God's love for us. He's the same yesterday, today and tomorrow. Indeed our God=Jesus=The Holy Spirit is our guide, our companion, our closest friend. I do want Him forever & ever in my life. :) I was oso blessed by Yu Zhen's msg. She was very daring, str-fwd. Taught us ladies on stuff that I believe, if we in our own grp of gals wld not or dare not talk about. Afterwhich, we fellowship with pizza eating. :) It was a rare sight. EVERYONE gathered ard the dinner table, chatted, laughed. I reali enjoyed it! Discussed about our connect grp outing. We are going JB in the 17th of May. Im reali super looking fwd to it. May all things we discuss COME TO PASS! AMEN!

Was pretty upset tat only Jaryl wen for the men's mtg. I seriously wonder wad're the guys in our cg doing?? Not only the fact tat it is a men's mtg, a word tat is ESPECIALLY for them, but tat if its a norm mtg, wld they go still? Some wld say y are gals nowadays so domineering, in control of everiting.. blah blah.. then may i noe wad're the guys doing? mmm.. ANS: NOTHING! i presume?? Who have God made to be the head of the hsehold?? hai....

I always think im a passive in regards to relationship. Indeed, i reali am. Recently, i was reminded of this person. A very good fren of mine, someone i noe cld listen, share and depend on. She backslided a few years back.. I was shocked, not only me. Everyone ard me was. Someone we tot wld least draw away frm God. True, nothing is predictable. But i wasnt eager enuf to reach out to her once again. It mite be an excuse, but im scared. She loves God more than me that i wld tink wadeveri tell her, she noes. How? Wad am i to do? But i was glad when she initiated to come for svc recently. Thou no one met up wif her, im glad she was so brave to stay on herself. I tell myself i wld nv wanto be passive again. I reali do wanto show her i care about her. I believe in no time, we wld be back tog once again, worshipping God, sharing with one another on how God has greatly bless our lives. :))))

Have not blog for ages le.. thus, decided to do so. :) Mani have been askin how is SOT.. It is reali great & I believe will get better! By tuesday, we were all filled with the holy laughter le. POWER! However, i realli experience it on thurs, where the whole audi was jus filled with pple laughing.. i laughed till tears jus flow out. I realli experienve Jn 7:38 - Out of his belly shall flow rivers of living water. Literally, i feel "something" stirring within my belly and I just burst out laughing and cld not stop! Its the Holy Spirit! Learnt alot more about the bible in terms of head knowledge.. but like wad Pst Derrick always says, its the PRESENCE of God that we want to experience during our school term. My team is TEAM 25 and of cos, a majority of Singaporeans and alot frm indonesia, 2 from Nigeria and 1 Korean.. We believe we are gonna win "THE BEST TEAM 2009"!!! :) Wooo~~~~

My dad...

Asked my dad for something today.

He asked me to think twice about it.

I insisted my way and said i've decided. I want it.

He still asked me to tink twice.

My reaction? totally upset about it and said a hurried goodbye and hang up.

Called my fren to "complain"

wen i put down the fone, my dad called back and i forced my bro to answer.

cos i noe thats my dad, asking wad we wan for dinner.

told my bro to tell him i wanted nothing (i was still upset).

my dad called again after 10mins..

I picked up as my stupid bro dint wanto do that.

Dad: Do u wanto eat noodles?

Me: No....

Dad: Are u sure u don't want?

Me: Yes....

(Dad comes back hme)

Dad: Do you want to eat noodles??

Haaahaa.. Ok, i was touched la. I knew he bought an extra pack. He was trying to talk to me and i know that. but im jus too stubborn.

Thks dad.

**I always wonder if our earthly dad is already so gracious twds us... how bout our heavenly dad?

Definitely much beta.

Jollie currently hates herself.

For being so fake, for being so weak..

Feeling so pain..

I know its just for the moment..

It always happen.. doesnt it??

Maybe i just don't want to let go...

But I know i MUST!

On the other hand,

am totally excited and scared at the same time for SOT (school of theology)..

u mite tink im childish, but i've totally no frens of the same zone going for SOT this intake..

n am so afraid of being alone.. thou i noe u guys 've told me i can make frens!

thats me..always worrying..

I have to CHANGE!

AMEN TO THAT!!